It’s a lively evening at Workers Tap, and I’m sipping on a Wild Herd Kolsch from Goose Island. I was lucky to find a table to write at-I wonder if I asked for a permanent seat to drink at on Fridays if that would help….just like, from 7-9 or something.
It’s a nice dream, anyway.
Goose Island used to be one of those names in craft brewing, right? Then they sold out to the man and I figure now would be a good chance to see if they still got it.
I’m very uncertain about this kolsch. It’s a little lifeless-the nose isn’t very strong at all. It has a sweet, bready quality that isn’t exactly awesome and I have to reach for it. The beer itself just doesn’t have the kind of emphasis on grains than I would like. There’s just no depth there, I am just having a sweeter version of the style than I personally prefer.
Especially since I’ve had some damn fine kolsch beers in my life. This just isn’t standing well next to them.
It’s been a bit of a scattershot week. The therapist told me to get a ‘self-love journal’ and I have to say, 25 year old me immediately recoiled from the idea. “It sounds,” I can hear him saying “like some bullshit.”
In the meantime, I am still aware that there are very serious wars happening, what can only be called a genocide that my gov’t seems to be willing to stand idly by and let happen-
And as an aside, I would think that of ALL PEOPLE in the world, Americans would have a real sense of separation between the powers and activities of the government, and the people who are living under said government and would really, really like things to be not as shit as they are.
Or put more simply: Washington DC does not equal Americans, we all know that. Seems like we ought to be able to apply that principle elsewhere.
But it has been noted-maybe even by myself-that subtlety is dead. We don’t have the bandwidth for nuances when white nationalists and election deniers have a mouth at the social megaphone.
(Extra aside: Fuck you, Rep Mike Johnson. You’re a cruel, scummy human.)
-that there is still a pandemic on, an abhorrent level of gun violence that we shouldn’t have to live with, yet our leaders are “somehow” powerless to fix….
And on and on. “Get a self-love journal.” Jesus. SO fucking trite.
Yet, I am in therapy for a reason. You don’t go to a doctor when you’re hurt to just ignore what you’re told.
Well. I’m hurt. I can keep on walking with this hurt or I can try what the professional is saying might help. Worst case I’m out $10. I can afford it. If it’s silly and that’s the worst of it?
Well shit. We could all use a little more silly.
Downstairs, people are meeting and planning, they have decided that collectively they can do and be more-around work, against injustice, against genocide. Just around the corner, I can hear a couple making a plan, something that sounds an awful lot like a date. Or a pre-date. They’re going to get sushi and get high.
As first dates go, I wish I had the audacity to propose such a thing.
It’s all…it could all be banal. But this is why I’m here. To people again, and I’m glad you’re coming along with me.